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Trojan has FAILED ME 
4th-Aug-2010 01:39 am
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Well, it's happened. An entire year before we meant to, I am 99% sure I'm pregnant.

Period missing. Breasts tender. EXHAUSTED. ALL THE TIME. Vague icky feeling in the morning (which, if this one is like the last one, will likely evolve into full-out nausea all day for the next few months).

I know the exact date we conceived the little bugger, which is excellent parental fodder for horrifying/tormenting our child when s/he gets older. July 17th, a day that will likely be forgotten when I throw away the calender.

According to the internet, I am due on or around April 6th.

I'm still mostly in shock, and I know Husband hasn't quite gotten used to the idea yet. Like I said, we weren't going to have any more kids on our own, I really had my heart set on adopting. And for sure not for another year or so, to get ZoZo out of diapers (although she's *this close* to figuring it out... I hope) and a bit more mature about handling sharing mommy time.

I haven't told many people yet, but my mom and dad know. I haven't been for an official pregnancy test yet, but the pee-on-a-stick test was positive, and as I said, I'm 99% sure. I'm going to the Dr. tomorrow and will have more to report then. Also, I think we will try and travel to somewhere and find out the gender. It would be nice to know what we are in for, especially since I have a boy name from the last go-round that I still adore, but no idea what I would name another girl.

Yes, I know I'm getting wayyy too ahead of myself, thinking about names. But I like to be prepared, and it's helping me be excited about this surprise, instead of feeling put out and nervous. I mean seriously, we don't have a ton of space or cash as it is. I need to work for at least another four months before I qualify for EI, so I will at least get benefits once baby comes.

GAH another baby. I'm so not ready for another baby. The house has to smell like spit up again? MORE diapers? Terrible twos AGAIN, and we're just barely coping with THIS toddler?

GAHHHH.

At least they will be close in age, and now we are officially DONE. I have asked Husband several times to get that damn vasectomy, but now I'm turning up the pressure. When this kid comes, if I need a caesarian (God forbid!) I will get the tubes tied while they've already got the hood open, so to speak. But it's likely I won't need one, since I managed the first one relatively well. So... snip, snip, buddy.
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4th-Aug-2010 01:48 pm (UTC)
I so get where you're coming from. I'm so very much invested in adopting the next one that the idea of getting pregnant is terrifying to me. Not that we wouldn't manage and be happy, but it's not how I want to do it is all. I've been trying to convince my husband to get snipped for a while now, but he insists he won't until we actually have a second child in our arms. Which makes no sense to me. I'm going to adopt no matter how it happens and we now have tons of money poured into this process. AND he's not going to want to be doing that bit of recovery while there are two smallish children, so I know he'll just wind up putting it off forever. Men and their weird ideas of manhood!

In the meanwhile, I got a Mirena IUD and we're still using condoms even with that because I am that paranoid.
4th-Aug-2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
Wow. That's...something. Terrifying? Wonderful? Horrific? Exciting? Marvelous? Nightmarish? Mostly because I want nothing to do with being pregnant or having another baby EVER.

So, good on ya! Better you than me! Congratulations, good luck, may the force be with you, and have fun stormin' the castle. I look forward to reading about the adventure :)
4th-Aug-2010 09:26 pm (UTC)
Wow, well, congratulations!
5th-Aug-2010 12:02 am (UTC)
Congratulations! YAY! April 6th is my birthday, so this has to be a spectacularly special baby. ;) Mine are all close together (yes, I had 7 years straight of diapers) but it worked out really well for us. I hope you get to feeling over-the-top excited after you get used to the idea, but until then, I'll squeeeeeee for you.
5th-Aug-2010 03:27 am (UTC)
Congrats! sounds like it wasn't in your plan, but then again, some of the best things in life are unplanned
6th-Aug-2010 05:01 pm (UTC)
Uhhmmm... congratulations? I know you pictured the next one as an adopted baby, or a bit more time with just the three of you, but do you think it'll be alright when you just get used to it?

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