My boss at Subway just told me today that he's cutting my (already meagre) hours IN HALF. So now I will be getting about 9 hours a week, at minimum wage. The wage isn't even the important part. It's the fact that I've only been working there for about 4 months, and that's not enough hours to get maternity benefits. I need a minimum of 600 hours paid into EI before I can claim, and it looks like I have about 300. So I would need to work another 4 months at my usual hours to get benefits. I was OK with that, and told my boss. The next day he cuts my hours. So now I either need to work WAY longer into my pregnancy (difficult, due to a highly crowded space a 6 month belly won't fit in, and back problems I'm dealing with) or get a second job.
Yes, that's right. I'm considering taking a second job. I NEED these benefits. Having no income for almost 2 years would be devastating. I would keep my pregnancy a secret from my employer and only work for a few months to get the hours paid into EI that I need. It's unethical but victimless. I've gotta do something. Christ, I was even looking at the housing market in Castlegar last week, daydreaming about getting a house with more than two bedrooms.
The Perseid meteor shower was beautiful. I spent an hour or so outside, and counted over 20 shooting stars. I pinned a worry to each one, and felt better for a while. Stupid hormones are exacerbating my troubles, and being alone is not when I'm at my best.
I miss Husband SO MUCH. He will be home tomorrow after a 2 week absence. Looks like he will be around for a week and then *poof* out of town again. It's a really vunerable feeling,being pregnant, parenting a toddler, working and finding a sitter and trying to keep up with the household, all by myself. I have a mother in law in Castlegar (half an hour away) and ONE FRIEND who helps with things when she's not working. My support network is tiny. tinytinytiny.
I can do this.
I can do this.