Two glasses of wine and two kids who have been sleeping now for over an hour. I need to go to bed but just finished downloading a new album to iTunes and am really enjoying it. Thought I'd write a little bit about my grandma.
My grandma has been a central figure in my life for as long as I can remember. I lived with her for the first couple of years of my life, along with my mom, until my mom got her own place when I was around two or three. I still spent every day with Grandma though, since my mom worked full time and I never went to pre school or anything like that. She had four kids of her own, and adopted two and fostered another three. I have 13 cousins and there are over 20 great-grandchildren to her credit. Her ability to be patient and kind and loving was limitless. Still is limitless, but not long for this world.
My Grandma has an inoperable and terminal case of stomach cancer. She is on a liquid diet and they are looking at putting a small tube down her esophagus to enlarge the opening to her stomach so she can eat something nutritious before the tumours get large enough to rupture her stomach and cause her to bleed to death from the inside.
I'm trying to get used to the idea that the next time I see her will likely be the last time I will ever see her alive.