So, I got a job. I was hoping to get two or three shifts a week to help pay the bills and get me out of the house once in a while, and ended up getting hired for Monday - Friday, 5-10:30PM. So I will be working almost 30 hours a week, on top of my usual nanny gig, which is often over 12 hours a week as well. So basically I'm working full time. The hardest part right now is that Husband isn't home by 5PM every day, so I have to get my MIL to come over and stay with the kiddo for a half hour or so between when I have to go to work and when he gets home. She has to drive for a half hour just to get here! So I am inconveniencing her a LOT. I need to write up a bulletin to see if there are any folks in town who want to babysit for an hour or so a day, on an "on-call" basis. Because we are never sure how long Husband will have to work in a given day.
I smell like a sammich.
And I need to get to bed. It's after midnight, and I work from 8AM-3PM nanny-ing, and then from 6-9:30 at Subway. Almost eleven hours of work. Minimum wage SUCKS.
This video takes scenery from my virtual backyard. Ootischenia is less than a half hour from my door. Beautiful doesn't begin to describe it. The band is the Be Good Tanyas, which I became obsessed with six years ago while traveling on the South Coast of BC with my then-fiancee. Their songs tend to use West Coast themes that I really enjoy, and how can you NOT love banjo folk music?
I just completed a four month Buffy The Vampire Slayer marathon. I had never watched the show when it was actually popular or televised, because I'm contrary like that when it comes to "things that are popular".
Now I want to open up discussions that people were having ten years ago about what I just experienced tonight. And in ten years I'll be all, "OMG, can you believe the weird shit that went down in LOST?"
I have a decade of lag between when everyone is doing something, and when I get my interest involved.
That being said, I must now mourn the death of Spike. William the Bloody, you were my favorite, right from the beginning. That wanker Angel should have moved to L.A. two seasons earlier and saved everyone his brooding emo whining. No one could dish it out (and take it) like you. No one could say so much with such economy. A smoking ten mile crater marks the place you exploded after channeling the power of the sun through your hard-won soul. It's a fitting memorial for a one-time Big Bad that wanted to create anarchy in Sunnydale. I wish it weren't over.
I don't want it to be Sunday. I don't want to go to my nanny gig tomorrow morning. It's not worth the time to go, to get paid my peasly $6 and hour. They used to let me take eggs home but now I will have to pay for them. So I told them to forget it, I would buy my eggs in a store instead. So now my only bonus for working there is a free bag of lettuce every week. Lettuce. And $6/hr.
I don't want to sound bitter, because it is helpful, especially because I can bring my Zoëgirl along and because it's right here in the village, so there's no commuting. But I am NOT getting the things done around the house (renovations) and in my life (motorcycle) that I dream of doing with earnings of $70/week. All I'm doing is avoiding the debt hole. I'm breaking even, but I want to get ahead.
Last week a friend on Facebook posted a beautiful, mint condition Yamaha Virago for sale.
Isn't it beautiful? If had even a part-time job, I'd be taking some financing and BUYING this machine.
I also have my heart set on buying a dishwasher with my tax refund this year. Except that I got into a fender-bender and damaged someones vehicle on Wednesday. I will hear from the fellow I hit this week, and we will find out how much it will cost to fix his dented bumper. If it's only a couple of hundred dollars, I will pay out of pocket rather than ruin my insurance benefits. Which means no dishwasher. Le Sigh.
Yesterday and today I did NO housework and just read "The Plains Of Passage" by Jean M. Auel.
I think I will start "Shelters of Stone" tonight. Fun, slightly trashy reads. I get sexy prehistoric funtimes and a thin veneer of research makes me feel like I'm learning about Ice Age history, too!
It's 11PM and the ZoZo has actually been asleep for three solid hours!!!
Normally that is nothing to write home about, but this has been the week. from. hell.( cut for TMI regarding vomitCollapse )
Hopefully the doctors will get their stupid overpaid asses in gear and sign the papers to allow us to change her antibiotic prescription tomorrow ASAP. She shouldn't go without antibiotics too long if her ears are inflamed. She needs to get comfortable so she will eat and sleep properly. Getting up every 30 mins was something I thought I could leave behind me. I guess I'm spoiled, considering how well she usually sleeps.
Oh, and I got my period last week, after four agonizing days of waiting. We had a condom failure, and I was FREAKING. OUT!!! So yay, not pregnant after all!!!
If you could have any fictional creature from a book, film, or TV show as your pet, which one would you choose, and why?
I'd go with My Pet Monster, hands down.
I adored this show when I was a kid. I mean, for sure, that monster caused a lot of trouble, but Max got to come and go from the monster world at will!!! Sounds pretty freakin' awesome to me.
After buying a jar of Sriracha red Rooster Hot Sauce, I have been looking forward to things like Hamburger Helper and Kraft Dinner (we NEVER buy the generic mac n' cheese) because they are prime candidates for being drowned in delicious, garlicky wonderful stuff. I am an addict. During my pregnancy I could eat food at a heat level I have never been able to match, before or since. Funny, since the baby that came out is incapable of eating even the barest amounts of spicy things.
The last two days have sucked.
I must be PMS-ing, because my emotions are going sky-high, and I don't feel like I have any control. ( paragraph of mother-in-law complaints hereCollapse )
OK, I need to get over it. I finally called her today, and asked if we could arrange a schedule, where she took Zoë for one afternoon a week. I need to just come right out and ask, instead of hoping they will OFFER to help with my child. I do need some time away from her. I love her so, so much, but I need to be CHEYANNA sometimes, not just Mommy.
At least she's slept now for 1.5 hours.
The weather is sure doing funny things. It's crazy that the States seem to be getting all our snow and cold this year. I can't remember it ever being this warm in February. Last year the snowbanks were so high we couldn't see the school across the street. This year we have maybe 4 inches on snow on our yard. The crocuses are showing green points in my flower bed.
This is going to be a better year. I am going to buckle down and create something beautiful. I have lots of places I need to improve, and I need to focus my scattered energies. Guess I will go and get to it.
I seriously need to get Husband involved with something other than the Playstation, so I can play, too! All you men out there who read my journal, which recent TV shows have really grabbed your attention?
The "rules" according to Hubby:
No Reality TV.
Nothing too science fiction/fantasy.
I started writing this entry with "the baby has just fallen asleep" when I realized that she's NOT a baby anymore.
Zoë will be 18 months old soon, and is almost ready to the big Potty Train Extravaganza. I'm putting it off because I'm worried about the rugs. But seriously, she's a full-blown toddler, and I need to accept that. She will always be my baby, but now I need to get out of the habit of calling her that. She FINALLY uses her own name, instead of calling herself Baby, which has been her name for herself since she could talk. I'd point to a picture of her and ask, "who's that?" and she'd reply, "BABY!". I'd point at her and say, "Zoë", and she'd point at herself and say, "BABY!!".
I liked it, it was cute, but I'm glad she can say her name now. Strangers ask her what her name is and she replies, "Doughy". (Can't quite manage the hard Z or C/K sounds yet)
Anyways, it's a beautiful day today.
Our PS3 is now internet-capable and we are exploring the PS3 universe. It's daunting. It's also addictive, and there is a lot of stuff there to occupy attention. I need to stay away until my housework is done. Oh, speaking of which, thanks a lot to martina_d
for the link to FlyLady, I'm going to join and start myself a clean up program. It sounds like something that's right up my alley.
I also took a bunch of pictures of my living room and sent them to a contest to win a $20,000 redecorating. I think that would be so, SO awesome. I have great ideas about every room in my house, and we have NO cash to contribute. I can see how beautiful our bedroom, bathroom and living room COULD be, and having to live with them in all their ugliness every day is challenging.
I finally found a bedspread that both Husband and I agree on from Sears, and can't wait to buy it and then co-ordinate paint colours from it. (One wall of my bedroom is unfinished plaster, one wall is a hideous wallpaper-style paneling, and two walls are an acceptable but faded robins egg blue.) The ceiling needs repainting, the light fixture needs updating and the beautiful hardwood floors need a MAJOR refinishing, or barring that, a nice area rug. We also need new closet doors. And that's just ONE ROOM in the house. Here's the bedspread:
I think I will paint two walls a milk chocolate brown, and two walls a matching shade of blue, with the trim an off-white, taupe colour.
What do you think?
This is way overdue. no excuses.
I just heard about the Haiti earthquake today, and we reconnected our modem so I could look up what happened in the news. I REALLY wish I hadn't. I don't like to be ignorant, but seeing tragedy and horror on that level, and being so far from able to help is doing a major squeeze job on my soul. I just sat in front of my monitor and cried.
So Christmas happened a while ago. I scored some sweet tools for my studio (which I haven't entered now in three weeks; it's bloody cold and there's no heat) and some clothes and, huzzah-shout-it-from-the-rooftops, a pasta machine! We made our first batch of angel hair egg noodles last night, and had chicken noodle soup, 100% from scratch. I am so proud.
Zoë got three different sets of Little People Playlands:
I am OVERRUN with Little People.
I got Husband Modern Warfare 2 for our PS3, and it motivated him to FINALLY hook our system up to the 'net, so we can now play online games with our friends. He's already beat the game, and is addicted to Special Ops. He's playing behind me right now.
I had the in-laws over for supper tonight. I made a pot roast, with diced onions and mushrooms and garlic, then made the best damn gravy I've ever had from the juices. I served it with mashed potatoes, carrots and corn and Dad-In-Law brought a homemade apple pie for dessert. I feel fat and happy.
I have a whole ton of photos and things that I should be posting, and talking about, and stuff. But, to be honest, I'm just not into it right now, so I'll sign off with a quick note to dumpster_glam
that I hope you're feeling better, and that if you can, we should go for coffee (or soothing herbal tea) tomorrow, as I will be in town to return an ill-fitting Christmas shirt. First trip to Nelson since before the holidays.
Oh yeah, and I have bright green highlights in my hair. that is all.
I also want it in writing where everyone can see that I will be doing a photo series of me in every single hat I own at some point soon. I got a groovy new one and want to show off my growing collection. Be prepared.
and it's going to have to be point form, as I am running out of time.
-I have a timer set right now to help with my resolution to not spend more than an hour a day online.
-I got totally spoiled on Christmas, but have not had access to a computer for AGES so I haven't been able to mention it before now. I will do a proper Christmas post next (TOMORROW) with pics and lists and other fun buggery.
-New Years was awesome, I recommitted to my 101 in 1,001 project, and, looking at my list, I see I am on target with about 1/3rd of my goals in progress or completed. A few fails that I'd like another crack at, but I will have to see. More details about my list in yet another post for another day.
-Zoë's skill set appears to have DOUBLED over the two weeks we were in FSJ for holidays. She speaks so clearly, and is using two words phrases, and tons of them. A few days ago, I was sleeping in and she came into my room and said,
"mom. MOM. MOMMY! bed. BED. PLEASE? Pleeaaasssee? Oh, MAN!"
I am still laughing over this.
-It is after 3PM and I am still in my pajamas. Our house still looks like an explosion due to unpacking from holidays.
-We were supposed to be home three days ago, yet we only got home last night. I HATE Castlegar airport, it has one of the poorest flight cancellation records I've ever encountered.
-I know everyone has already posted similar messages, on time and with more feeling, but
Merry Chirstmas and Happy New Year, friendslist. I am so glad you are all here, letting me learn a bit about you and your lives, and hope I share enough to make it worth your while. Love to every single one of you!
I am spending too much time on the computer and not enough on my housework or daughter. It's pretty bad. I seriously need to grow a backbone and some discipline before my self-respect is permanently damaged. When Husband comes home and the dishes from last night are still on the counter, and all I can talk about is the latest episode of Dexter or my new obsession with Buffy the Vampire Slayer I hang my head in shame. (But still want to watch more Buffy)
I am going to limit myself to an hour a day from now on.
I really am, this time.
• Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions
My questions came from ohyes_that_girl
1.)Best parenting moment, so far?
Yesterday we had company over that hadn't seen Zoë for quite a while. She signed Twinkle Twinkle for them, demonstrated the moves for Ring Around The Rosy, danced along with our background music, sat in their laps and was just generally a sweet, smart, easygoing little girl for FOUR HOURS. I was so, so proud of her.
2.)Is there one article of clothing you own that you couldn't imagine existing without?
I have a red and black striped hoodie with a screenprint of crossed revolvers on the back. I bought it for my birthday three years ago and I wear it almost every day. The black is turning grey and I don't care at all.
3.)Is there something you've always wanted to do, but haven't had the chance to do yet?
I've always wanted to skydive, and to packpack around Europe. Guess we're waiting for the kidlet to graduate before tackling that last one now. I also really want to buy a motorcycle.
4.)Describe what your perfect day would be like.
Waking up and feeling rested after a good nights' sleep. Getting up and having coffee brewed and breakfast of bacon, eggs and waffles. I'd give my clean, fed and content daughter a hug and go out into the sunshine to ride my brand new Triumph Street Triple
to a sci-fi convention, where I have the pick of all the best costumes that make me look sexy and awesome. I'd eat a flirtatious lunch with a handsome stranger, then roar off on my bike, back home to hang out with Zoë in my newly renovated home, which is now spotlessly clean. I'd put Zoë down for a nap and go lie in the late afternoon sun with a brand new novel, followed by dinner at the Mazatlan Restaurant (which hasn't closed down in my perfect world). The baby is perfectly behaved in the restaurant, then we go home and have kettle corn style popcorn and watch Up or Ponyo. Then babe would go to bed and I'd drink wine and watch the sun set. Followed by sex with my hubby until neither of us can stand.
yes. sign me up, please!
I suppose surviving motherhood so far is pretty big for me. Making jewellery is pretty special to me, too, and now that I am building myself a studio, I suppose that once that is done and I am producing my own designs for profit, that will be pretty big, too.
I am leaving tomorrow morning to go to Vancouver with the Man for three whole, joyous, baby and obligation-free days!!!
Yes, LJ Land, you read correct. Three nights of no toddler, no dishes, no housework, no family but the best friend I married.
Husband has to go to Langley (Vancouver suburb) for a Safety Course regarding his work, and his boss agreed to book a double room and allow me to tag along. My mother in law is overjoyed to take ZoZo for a few nights, so I will be scott-free and loving it!!!
Since the man has to be in his class all day Tuesday and Wednesday, I will rely on public transportation to take me from the 'burbs to downtown Vancouver, where, on the corner of Cambie and some other street I have written down somewhere, I will visit Lacy West and use my early given Christmas money to buy an oxy propane torch and a bunch of hand tools. Once the new year turns around, it's looking like I will be pretty much 100% to start repairing and building silver jewellery. I'm starting small, with a series of simple silver band rings, just to regain a feel for soldering and my new hand tools. Once I've built a few I will know how long they each take me, how much materials cost, and how much I can charge for them. When that happens, I'm hoping to find a few places to sell the buggers.
, how much does Etsy charge for commission when you sell stuff and list stuff there?
Anywho, it's almost midnight, and while I'm packed, the dishes are still dirty, and I want to come home to a relatively clean home.
Here's to hoping my mother in law handles my daughter OK, and that I don't freak out (and neither does she) when we have to separate for the longest time ever tomorrow morning!
See you all in a few days.
Here's a quick shout out to Sandowl, formerly the BopBopBop, who is such a joy to read and know on LJ! Yay for your birthday, lady!
I started another list to try and get straight the number of things Zoë can say.
Night, nap, papa, mama, mom, mommy, daddy, kitty, dog, monkey, hands, nose, brows,(bOWs) toes, teeth, cheeks, mouth (mouf), chin, baaaaa (ball) eyes, pease (please) mammaths (mammoths - we watched Ice Age with her and it stuck), shoes, couch, potty, buddy, dude, button, pounds (and sticks out her fist to give pounds), ouch, pancakes, toast, pets, no!< up down, done, hair, ears, thanks you, bum, eeww, ahwa (water), mess, mittens, hat, on, off, turtle, eat, bar (granola bar), "dady" (candy) boots, chair, meat, plant, spoon.
She also knows that a cat says Meow, a dog says arf, a pig says oint, a duck says taq taq, a chicken says butt butt, a sheep says baaa baaaa, and a cow says moooo.
She cannot make the hard consonant "K" sound, hence the 'oint' and taq. We read Five little Monkeys every night, and will say "no, no, no, no, no!" when it's time for "no more monkeys jumping on the bed", which I find adorable. She happily does all the actions to Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, and sings "ha wawawa" for How I wonder what you are".